Bluntly Me

Hi and assalamualaikum everyone! Its been so long since I left this blog alone and now I'm just going to talk about myself

(im just going to mix English and malay in here, i hope you dont mind)

For so many years, I thought that i am that kind of person yang boleh cover mulut. I mean like, someone yang boleh jaga perkataan yang tak menyinggung. But thennnnnnn, I dont know since when I become bluntly honest, but yea i just did.

It happens when I was 18 if im not mistaken, there was this one lady, she's fair skin and tall, but  a little bit chubby and she was checking the lipstick colour that suits her, and then she took the pink one. and swatched it on her skin. i was standing besides here, looking for lipstick too. and then she asked me "dik, do you think this colour suits me because i love this colour!''

I stare for awhile looking at the lipstick swatches and her lips and diam kejap.

My brain: It doesnt suits her, but be nice say it suits her
My heart: If you lying, you dying

2SECONDS LATER

My mouth: It doesnt suits you, the pink is too bright. You look weird

HSHSHSOAOSNCJEIW FOR FUCK SAKE MY MOUTH MAKWWEDDAORWO I DONT KNOW

she was taken aback and said "oohh yeke? ooo takpela, guess the colour is not for me, maybe i can find another colour" and all i can only do is smile awkwardly

I was too awkward to stand there so I left Watson. Ya anak anak it happened in watson.

Time keluar tu aku maki diri aku, I was like "kenapa mulut aku cakap centu? tapi betul la warna tu memang tak sesuai pun dengan dia but mesti dia rasa sedih, hmm omaigod"

then the second incident happened kat matrik. I kid you not, I swear I was embarrassing my friends and myself.

That time kitorang (farah,dayah,tiqa,kyra and aku) study kat hep, and then ada budak laki duduk meja sebelah, so we just cool and keep on studying( most of the time we're just gossiping) then one of the boys offered us biskut raya. He said that all the boys are already full and dont want the biskut raya anymore hence the offer.

the girls was quite. ALL SILENCE AND STARE. then one by one said "no thanks, we already full"

but me being the astagfirullahalazim friend with astagfirullahalazim mouth bluntly said

"Em sebenarnya nak tapi malu la"

THE GIRLS WERE GIVING ME DEATH STARES. I SWEAR TO GOD I SAW THE WHOLE EYES ON ME, THE EYES THAT SAID (FATIN KAU SUMPAH NAK KENA LEMPANG TUU MULUT KAU TAK BOLEH TUTUP KEE)

Pastu the boys were like "haaa amek la amek makanla sedapppp."
and they said thank you

then they whispered.

"Bodo fatin, kau malukan aku siot"
"Aku sumpah rasa nak lari je tadi time dia bukak mulut"
"Aku tak pernah rasa malu sebegitu"

i was like........sorry la kawan kawan. saya tak sengaja.

but then

"tapi sebenarnya memang aku nak pun, thanks atin sebab cakapkan"

I was like????????? i knew it.

The third one happened in this year. one of my classmate pegang attendance. then he supposed to give it to me, tapi dia malas nak gerak, so at first aku cam cakap dalam hati je lah "ya allah ringankanlah bontot manusia ni" cs on that time i was actually pms

and then he had handouts, then time dia panggil "weh" , dia hulur centu je. Aku cam kau kalau dekat hulur centu takpe tau ni sebab kau jauh, aku sumpah rasa nak hempuk kau

so aku kena lah bangun
and my astagfirullahalazim mouth
: aduh kau ni berat bontot lah, cubalah gerak sikit

and then dia terkejut. pastu dia cakap "eh sorry ah adumak merungut ah"

then the other classmate semua pandang kitorang and boys gelak2. sumpah malu gila time tu tapi nak buat camna........

aku takleh control mulut.......

sedihnya